Chef_Troy (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} chef_troy) wrote,@ 2009-02-04 07:57:00 |
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Ten Reasons I Am Fat
I felt the need to write this down so I can actually LOOK at it, in hopes that I can find the courage to start dealing with my issues.
When I started writing this list, I was in the act of doing #4 -- I got breakfast from the crap-eteria in my building, and I realized that I was continuing to shovel it in even as I was thinking to myself, "God, this is not very good." Even though it had broken through to my conscious mind what I was doing, it was surprisingly hard to break that programming and throw it away.
I am so depressed right now.
I felt the need to write this down so I can actually LOOK at it, in hopes that I can find the courage to start dealing with my issues.
- I eat just because someone else is eating and I want to "keep them company."
- I keep eating after I'm full because there's only a little left (often actually an entire serving, or nearly) and I tell myself it's not worth putting it in Tupperware.
- I finish my own food, and then if my wife or one of my kids doesn't finish theirs, I finish it for them.
- I keep eating something even if it isn't very good, because I tell myself it's wasteful to just throw it out.
- I eat late at night because I've stayed up long enough after dinner that another meal seems reasonable (Thanks a LOT for that "Fourthmeal" thing, Taco Bell!)
- I order too much food at restaurants because I tell myself I want more variety -- a little of several things instead of a larger amount of just one thing -- and then eat all of each thing I've ordered.
- Just from inertia, I keep ordering the same amount of food I used to get when I was even fatter, even though I would probably be satisfied with half as much.
- I eat way too fast, even though I know consciously that I would eat less if I slowed down because my body would have a chance to tell me it was satisfied before I plowed through another dozen bites. (At least I DO know the source of this habit, and it made sense at the time, but no longer does.)
- I tell myself I don't have time to exercise, even though I spend several hours a day reading/surfing the Net/watching TV.
- I have a fat wife, and instead of spurring each other to do something about our obesity, we enable each other and avoid the subject.
When I started writing this list, I was in the act of doing #4 -- I got breakfast from the crap-eteria in my building, and I realized that I was continuing to shovel it in even as I was thinking to myself, "God, this is not very good." Even though it had broken through to my conscious mind what I was doing, it was surprisingly hard to break that programming and throw it away.
I am so depressed right now.
